But lets be honest here, I couldn't stay away from her. I didn't want to. I never did. I wanted to be close to her, there was just something about her that I know would make me go crazy.
And I was sooooooo right about that.
So during one of my days off, I texted her and asked her what she was doing after work. She said that she was getting out early and that she would love to hang out. She came by my house to pick me up, something I'm not used to since I'm usually the only one with a license, and proceeded to go back to her house. She wanted to take me somewhere called the Granville Gorge. It reminded me of those times that I used to go down to the river near my house and take pictures so I was psyched to go. I thought that I was just going to find another place to take great pictures. Turns out it was going to mark the spot where it started a new chapter in the rest of my life.
When we got to the Gorge and started walking towards the water, I was in awe. There was no one there and it was just so quiet and serene. It was a little chunk of paradise. We scaled the rocky water and talked about everything and anything. Even after just being with her, alone, for an hour I felt like I've known her for years. The instant connection was overwhelming, I realized I was in trouble.
I couldn't stop staring at her when she was in front of me. I kept on getting lost in her eyes every time I'd look at her face to face. I just wanted to keep hearing her talk, the sound of her voice was so mesmerizing. I just wanted to grab her and kiss her. But I knew that I couldn't do that to Sam, not again. The feelings were so overwhelming that I just wanted to break-down and cry.
It was starting to get dark really fast, we didn't realize it but two hours had past since we've been there. We decided it was a good idea to get going before it got too dark to get back to the car. I went to grab my sneakers but it was too dark to see which tree I left them nearby. "Fuck! I can't find my goddamn shoes. That shit just cost me $60.00!" Sara looked at me and said "Don't worry, I'll find them." Even in the almost complete darkness, she scaled those rocks with precision and ease. I couldn't help but watch in fascination. I looked over briefly to a large rock that I was standing near-by and automatically thought of how badly I wanted to grab her and fuck her on that rock. I know, I'm quite the romantic. Twenty minutes or so pass and I told her that we should just give up and I can always come back later with a flash light to find them, but she was persistent. I kept on trying to convince her that it was hopeless and how we should ---- "I FOUND THEM!" she yelled out. I was speechless. I'm not the type of person to be "woo-ed" but for the first time, I think I kind of was. All I could say is "I don't know how I can repay you.. I owe you one."
We left and kept talking, talking about our lives and what type of music we like. Just the normal stuff. Little did she know though, I was freaking out. I was petrified of these feelings. I knew that this WASN'T going to end well. But goddamit, I have a problem. We got back to her house and we changed into not-Gorge water-soaked clothes and went on our way to get Liz. Since we had left the Gorge, I couldn't stop telling her "I don't know how I can repay you." She said don't worry about it. I still wanted to grab her and kiss her. It was the only thing on my mind. I was driving on the highway and I couldn't stop staring at her lips. How badly I wanted them pressed against mine. I didn't want her to see me so frustrated. I kept my calm facade and focused on driving as much as I could.
We got to Liz's driveway and I put the car in park. I knew that if I made eye contact with her it wouldn't end well. I told her to call Liz and tell her that we were outside. Liz said she'd be out in a few minutes. Fuck, Liz. I looked up at her and I'm instantly hooked. "I figured out a way to pay you back." I leaned over and I kissed her. Time stopped. That feeling I had at the party came back, but this time with a vengeance. My heart felt like it was racing and it felt like it stopped at the exact same time. I pulled away and smiled. She sat there, speechless, with the biggest grin on her face. Liz came outside and Sara yelled "THAT'S NOT FAIR!" I couldn't help but laugh and smile some more. Liz got in the car and we drove off.
I know she wished that she could have missed that first kiss.
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